This was after hearing more than 1 story about women who had listed out the qualities they wanted in their future husbands, burned the lists at midnight on New Years, and found themselves engaged by the following year.
Yes, I am admittedly a girl who believes in magic.
Not real magic of course, but just… the kind of magic that comes from wishing and hoping and praying.
The magic that comes from making your intentions known to both yourself, and the world, and then positioning yourself in such a way that those intentions have an opportunity to come true.
I’m not sure if I’m explaining it correctly, but the point is – I believe in magic.
And I probably always will.
One of the reasons why at 11:11, I still always find myself wishing for love.
So last New Year's, after months of heartbreak and sadness and an incredibly strong need for a little magic, my lists were pretty out of control.
Four pages of what I wanted from the future love of my life, and an additional one dictating simply what I wanted from myself for the year to come.
That list, the one that started with my request for “Healing: Mentally, physically, and spiritually”… Well, I know I’ve come a long way on that list. I am in a good place. A place I couldn't even begin to imagine being this time last year. I also know that every item on that list is still a goal for my future. For the year still to come. I don’t need to write a new list, because I want to continue focusing on every single word I wrote on that one.
And the same can be said for the man list. (Let’s not forget – Loo burned a list last year with me, and she is now engaged to a man she met a few months later – magic I tell you!) No one can argue that I met a man who fulfilled many of the requirements of that list on New Year’s Eve last year, shortly after our little burning ritual.
You can’t tell me there isn’t magic there.
But we haven’t yet gotten to the outcome of that story, and I’m not ready to give anything away. So I’ll leave you simply with the fact that that list; it still describes the man I want to call my one and only.
So there’s no need for me to write another one of those either.
This week, I thought long and hard about what my midnight list to burn this year should contain. I knew I didn’t want to re-invent the wheel. I liked what I came up with last year, and I wanted to keep those vibes going.
But I also knew, I should put something out there this year.
And then it hit me.
The one real goal I have for the year to come.
Uncomplicated, undeniable, unrelenting and enduring love.
Mine to have and to give.
For keeps.
I had 5 pages of lists for last year.
This year, I have 14 words.
And I think they’re perfect.
At midnight, I’ll be burning my single page.
Adding it on to the wishes I put out to the universe last year.
And in 2012, I’m just going to continue moving forward. Chipping away at building the life I yearn for.
Relying a little bit on magic, a lot on God.
And more than anything; on myself.
To create that life I desire. For both myself, and whoever should find their way by my side.
I hope everyone has an amazing New Years Eve.
I know I'm planning on it being one I don't soon intend to forget.
