So I didn’t do either.
I’m not sure that I’ll ever get into the details of what exactly happened here, mostly because there is a piece of me that still doesn’t understand. And as much as I keep looking for the blame to place upon myself (feeling like I must have done something to cause this - to deserve it; like at the very least, I should have done a better job of protecting my heart) I just... I don't understand.
All I know is that it hurts like hell.
Which I realize is insanely cryptic, and I’m sorry. I just don’t know what else to say.
But, I'm back. Because I need to be putting something on paper. Because it's what I do.
Hold my head high and keep moving forward... no matter what.
Because life moves on.
And people do too.
It’s just the way it is I guess.
And that, is all I think I’m going to say about that.
Stay tuned for tonight though. Because adding to what would already have been an emotional few days for me, I also started Aunt Flo on Monday.
Gotta love my period and its impeccable timing.
But I was able to put my Diva Cup to good use for the first time ever.
And tonight – I plan on sharing with you all the
Because right now?
I really need something to laugh at.
And tomorrow?
Well, I’m hoping that tomorrow is the start of something new…