Sorry For The Disappearing Act...

It’s been a rough few days, and for the first time in a long time (the first time ever since starting this blog) I just didn’t know how to put into words what I was thinking and feeling. Even more than that – I didn’t know how to throw together a bunch of fluff and pretend like nothing was going on.

So I didn’t do either.

I’m not sure that I’ll ever get into the details of what exactly happened here, mostly because there is a piece of me that still doesn’t understand. And as much as I keep looking for the blame to place upon myself (feeling like I must have done something to cause this - to deserve it; like at the very least, I should have done a better job of protecting my heart) I just... I don't understand.

All I know is that it hurts like hell.

Which I realize is insanely cryptic, and I’m sorry. I just don’t know what else to say.

But, I'm back. Because I need to be putting something on paper. Because it's what I do.

Hold my head high and keep moving forward... no matter what.

Because life moves on.

And people do too.

It’s just the way it is I guess.

And that, is all I think I’m going to say about that.

Stay tuned for tonight though. Because adding to what would already have been an emotional few days for me, I also started Aunt Flo on Monday.

Gotta love my period and its impeccable timing.

But I was able to put my Diva Cup to good use for the first time ever.

And tonight – I plan on sharing with you all the bloody gory details. In as upbeat and humorous a fashion as I can possibly muster.

Because right now?

I really need something to laugh at.

And tomorrow?

Well, I’m hoping that tomorrow is the start of something new…