Really sore.
I had my second Rolfing session this morning and then went straight into a reformer class as soon as it was done.
And this is on top of the advanced mat class I took last night.
The advanced mat class that I was nowhere near advanced enough to be taking, which led to a lot of embarrassment on my end.
It’s good though. A good sore. I was driving home last night and thinking about how healthy I've been feeling the last few weeks. How strong.
And how good it is to be feeling that way again.
I started back on gluten and dairy free this week at the urging of Teeny and Dr. Naturopath. I can’t say it’s going to stick (and in fact, we’ve already discussed the healthy grains I can add back in a few weeks from now – after a cleansing period to get my liver good and happy), but I’m actually doing pretty well on it. No real cravings or food frustrations at all yet.
Knock on wood.
We started up a Biggest Loser over at the community too, and that’s got me even more motivated to get my butt in gear. Knowing all those lovely women are on the train to getting back in shape with me somehow makes it that much easier to stick to a plan right now.
If you’re by chance hoping to get back into summer weight here soon as well, we would love to have you join us. We’re only one week in, so you could definitely hop in this next week no problem. Just check out the details here, and let us know your goal.
For me? That goal is dropping 13.5 pounds. I weighed in at 148.5 on Monday morning (although, to be fair – I would like to believe that at least 2 of those pounds were period weight.) For the last 4 years I have fluctuated pretty steadily between 145 and 155. I haven’t weighed below 140 since I was maybe 22? But I remember liking it there!
So that’s the goal – 135. Happy, healthy, and rocking the body I had long before any of this infertility stuff ever began.
At my first session with McDreamy, he was going over my body and discussing my history before pausing and saying “Don’t worry – we’re going to put Humpty Dumpty back together again.”
I busted out laughing. Had this man seriously just called me Humpty Dumpty? This married man who I was definitely (secretly) crushing on?
Yes, yes he had.
But I’ve been saying it myself ever since.
I’m putting Humpty Dumpty back together again. I am feeling healthy, pain free, and ready to take on the world. I am not going to take for granted the blessing this last surgery gave me. I am going to embrace every moment, and get my life (and my body) back.
So yeah – I’ve been working my butt off. The new skin care regime (which is working amazingly!), the Pilates workouts (to which I began to add some light cardio this week), the Rolfing, and the diet… It’s all part of the plan. The plan to take back some of the power in this situation. Some of the control.
I may not be able to have babies. I may not ever be able to have babies.
But you know what? If that’s the case – I am going to hold my head high.
I’m going to put Humpty Dumpty back together again.
And I’m going to be rocking a fantastic summer body before you know it.
I would rather have stretch marks and saggy boobs and a baby in my arms any day – and that is the sincerest of truths.
But if I can’t have that – I’m going to look like I did when I was 22 again.
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.
But Humpty Dumpty will get put back together again.
Just you wait and see.
