I am not a big fan of Christmas.
Never really have been to be completely honest.
I like the sentiment behind it. The love and togetherness. The true meaning behind the day.
But I can’t stand the commercialism of it all. It bothers me that an entire nation of people spends money they don’t have on gifts people don’t really want. I find it frustrating that the days following Christmas are just as busy as the days leading up to it – with people returning gifts and using up gift cards. And it irks me that the gift giving, and decorating, and jolly fat guy in a suit seem to trump the true spirit of Christmas in many ways.
I know. I know. I’m a scrooge.
If it makes you feel any better though, I’ve always been a scrooge. This isn’t a new thing resulting from the last year. I promise!
In my defense, I always said I would embrace those things once I had children and a family of my own. In my entire adult life, I have never decorated for Christmas (and I finally have most the people in my life to a point of understanding that while I am all about spending time with them – I have no interest in exchanging gifts); but I always said that once I had kids, my attitude regarding the holiday would change.
For them.
Because I would want to give them the magic.
I feel like so many of the nuances of the holiday itself are for kids after all. It is a day meant to brighten the eyes of little ones.
And so not having any little ones of my own (and not being sure of when or if that will ever happen), I suppose there is a little bit more of a sting to this year’s festivities than normal.
If you’re feeling the infertile holiday ache as well, check out my newest post at Fertility Authority. Thanks for Nothing Santa.
Because sometimes, Santa just doesn’t bring you what you want.
In other news, I think we’ll take a hiatus from the Live Infertility Chat this week. Let everyone spend some time with their families (or recover from the holiday blues). We’ll pick up again next Sunday though. Same time, same place.
And until then – lots of love to all my fellow infertiles. I know this time of year is hard, but just know;
You are not alone in that ache.
ADSPACE
