In my own 4th grade scrawl, folded up like a secret love letter, and tucked away in my purse for tonight. Next to a lighter. Because that thing is going up in flames at midnight (or sometime shortly thereafter). I am sending it out into the universe. Making sure the world knows exactly what I’m looking for. And that I’m not willing to settle for any less.
I made Loo write a list too. Just for good measure. We will definitely be the trippy chicks ducking out of the bar to play with fire in the snow.
We’re classy like that.
But without further ado, I figured I should share my list here. Make sure you all know what I’m looking for too. That you can all hold me accountable when the next boy comes knocking on my door. Remind me that I promised myself no more settling for less than what I want from here on out…
The List
- Wants kids. In a crazy passionate way that isn’t even necessarily natural for most men. But willing to consider any and all possible options for bringing those children into our lives. Accepting of the fact that it may not be the easiest route – but willing to do anything it takes, because he truly believes it will be worth it in the end.
- All the makings of an incredible father to be.
- Supportive. Patient. Understanding. Kind.
- Spiritual, and capable of walking alongside me on my own spiritual path. Picking me up and redirecting me in the right direction when I fall. As I often do.
- Comes from a genuine and warm family. One with a mother willing to wrap me up in her arms and adopt me as her own on the spot.
- Passionate. In a thousand different ways and about a thousand different subjects. But most of all, passionate about me.
- Honest. To a fault even. A man capable of being an open book. One who doesn’t necessarily mind if his life does in fact actually become an open book eventually.
- Intelligent. Well educated. The kind of man who actually reads for enjoyment. For enlightenment. Simply for his own edification.
- Motivated. Not necessarily rich (although it would be nice) or driven to the point of forsaking all else, but simply motivated. Towards something. Towards anything. Not willing to sit on the couch all day doing nothing when there is a world out there to conquer.
- Someone who holds my hand. Touches me when I don’t expect it. Runs his fingertips along my body in bed. Gives me massages when my back is aching and my mood is waning. Fills my stomach with butterflies, even in the morning hours with crusties still in his eyes.
- Witty. Capable of sparring with me for hours on end.
- Undeterred. By me. My life. My health issues. My random bouts of insanity. My incessant neurosis. And my unending verbosity. In fact, not simply undeterred, but actually all the more smitten as a result.
- Open minded. About anything. About everything. Capable of seeing the world through the eyes of others, and of exhibiting compassion in even the most uncomfortable of circumstances.
- No heavy addictions. No smoking. No drugs. Limited booze. High on life. And maybe me.
- Piercing green eyes and a mountain man beard. Not a requirement, but a plus.
- A zest for travel. And seeing the world. Together, and with our children.
- Loyal. Dedicated. True.
- Mine. For keeps.
And just for good measure, I made a second list. One for myself this time. For the things I hope 2011 to bring to me above and beyond Mr. Wonderful
The Year
- Healing. Mentally, physically, and spiritually.
- Being better. A better friend. A better daughter. A better sister. A better granddaughter. A better employee. Just better.
- Financial freedom.
- Forgiveness. For myself most of all. But also for those from my past I’ve never truly been able to forgive up to this point.
- A map back to my happy place. Wherever it may be.
- Trust in God. Always. No matter what.
I hope you all have your lists made too. And that 2011 brings you everything you hope for.
And so much more.
