Dairy and I have broken up. Officially.
Except… there is still a lot of dairy in my refrigerator. We’re talking 3 different blocks of cheese, butter, half a Costco case of yogurt, sour cream, and a gallon of milk.
This shows that clearly just last weekend (when I made a Costco run), I had no intentions of giving up my beloved dairy any time soon.
This cleanse had better be worth it.
I don’t really know what to do with all the excess now either. I know it will all be bad long before I’m allowed to reintroduce dairy again (if I even want to, because let's face it; if I go to all the trouble of abstaining for 3 weeks, it might just be better to leave it out until the next baby making round – wouldn’t want to go through dairy withdraws more than once!), but I don’t know what to do with all this half eaten food.
I just know I need to get it out of my house, because already – I am sad just looking at it.
This is going to be fine though. I realized this afternoon that dinner is the only meal that’s going to be tough. There are plenty of viable options for breakfast (oatmeal and gluten free waffles work just fine), and I pretty much lived off of fruits and veggies throughout the day before anyway; it’s dinner where cheese and I really had our love affair.
Dinner where I liked to cook up my pasta and slather it in mounds of shredded cheese.
Dinner where I made burritos that had more cheese than anything else.
Dinner where my cheese fetish clearly shone through.
Every. Single. Night.
I’ve realized that I’m not sure I know how to cook up a decent dinner without any gluten or dairy. I’m picturing chicken breasts and black beans – and it all just seems very boring. That kind of a set up simply screams for a tortilla, heaps of sour cream, and half a block of cheese – at least.
Yes, this is going to be tough. Especially next week when beans and meat are out too. Please tell me, how exactly does one compose a week’s worth of dinners out of rice and veggies?
It just isn't right.
I do have to say though; the more and more I think about it, the happier I am that I’m doing this cleanse so soon after my failed cycle. It feels like the right way to get all of those crappy hormones out of my system and start over; plus, I think it will give me something to focus on. Something I actively have to do. Some way to at least feel like I am taking charge of my own health rather than just sitting back and waiting for the endo to return.
That’s partially why I think I might try to stick to the gluten free, dairy free, alcohol free craziness even after this next 3 weeks is up; just to try to get myself as healthy as humanly possible before trying again.
Because, I do think I'm going to want to try again soon. And going in as healthy as I could possibly be doesn't sound like the worst idea.
Of course, I say that now; only 1 day in.
Let’s see how much I’m jonesing for a block of Tillamook once everything is said and done.
Because seriously? I wouldn’t mind a block of Tillamook to gnaw on right now…
In fact, I am officially sitting here daydreaming about cheese.
Yeah. This could be an issue.
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