My entire cycle is on hold, waiting for (get this): my period.
That is right ladies and gentleman; we are once again on period watch 2010.
Because my uterus just refuses to cooperate, I will not be starting my hormones today.
You would think the fact that it has been a year since I have bled would have had these flood gates opening wide, but not so much.
Instead, we wait.
And those lovely shots I was meant to begin tonight, sit lonely on my table.
I knew this part wasn’t going to be easy. I just had a feeling.
I mean, of course I recognized that the period itself would be unpleasant (still not looking forward to that pain), but I also knew dear old Aunt Flow was going to be late in arriving. When I spoke to my coordinator on Friday and she told me she wanted me to take my last pill that night and that she wanted my period to start on Monday, I told her there was just no way.
I explained that back in the day when I was a normal girl who took the pill for normal reasons (it seems so long ago), it always took 5 days after my last active pill for me to start – like clockwork.
Now that I am no longer a normal girl and my pill taking purpose was to continue to suppress a long absent menses, I knew that giving it the weekend wasn’t going to cut it.
After I explained my past, my coordinator told me to go ahead and skip that night, so my last active pill would have been Thursday.
Still, I didn’t have high hopes.
And now here I am, unfortunately right.
I got so many e-mails and text messages today; wishing me luck on my first day of shots. I sullenly had to respond to each and every one that I wouldn't be starting today - that everything was on hold.
Because of my period.
Or lack thereof.
We can only hope that the crimson tide will start on its own within the next few days. Theoretically, stopping the pill should be the only thing my body needs to induce it.
Theoretically.
Until then, my cycle is on hold. And everything will be pushed behind by however many days it takes for me to start.
Which wouldn’t be the end of the world, except for the fact that I already have my time off work arranged as well as my plane tickets and hotel.
Please just let me bleed.
