My roommate moved out on Friday. As some of you may remember, this was all part of the plan, so her leaving was completely amicable and without drama (in other words – I didn’t boot the poor girl! I told her I was ready to start living alone, and gave her as much time as she needed to find a new place. It actually worked out really well because she had a friend who just so happened to be looking for a roommate at the same time, so no harm no foul – I didn’t leave her homeless!) I am so excited to actually make my place my place. To have all the decorations exactly my style, all the smells homey and only from things I would have cooked (roommate liked to cook, and sometimes the stuff she cooked was a little stinky for me!), and all the messes my mess (because there is something so much less offensive about your own mess!)
I spent the entire weekend cleaning and reorganizing and really making the place mine. It was nice to be able to spread out my stuff, since it had all previously been confined to half of the condo. I am about to close that spare bedroom door though, because I can’t look at it in all its empty glory without being filled with emotion and an urge to start decorating immediately! I have visions of rocking chairs and changing tables and cribs, and the picture of what I want the ocean themed mural to look like all designed out in my head. I have that room turned completely into a nursery already in my brain. But, I know that I can’t decorate now. I keep thinking about Charlotte from Sex In The City and how difficult it was for her to have the room with no baby. I keep reminding myself what a source of disappointment and pain that room will become if November doesn’t work out the way I want it to, so I will not decorate it yet. I will leave it empty and waiting, but… it’s not going to be easy!
I haven’t left the house all weekend. I’ve just been enjoying the peace and quiet of my home and staring out the window at the snow that’s been coming down for the last 72 hours (I do love my winter wonderland when I get to enjoy it from inside!) I have had roommates for the last almost 7 years (there was a period of about a year and a half starting when I was 18 where I lived by myself, but it was kind of a dark period of my life and I honestly shouldn't have been living alone - left to my own devices I got myself into more trouble than I care to admit.) I’ve always loved having roommates (really and truly – I have actually made some of my best friends because we were roommates first at some point in time) but suddenly; I kind of feel like an adult! You know, the kind of adult who is past dorms and roommates and final exams and jobs that involve serving drinks to drunks until 2 in the morning. It’s kind of exciting! Who knew it would take me until 26 to grow up!
I still have no idea how I am going to make up for that extra $700 a month I got from her rent and help with utilities, but I’m not too worried about it. This is a pretty bizarre thing for me since I am always worried about something (especially finances) but I just feel like it is all going to work out; like I am totally going to be able to figure this out. It just seems like one more hurdle to jump to get to baby, and right now I am all for jumping those hurdles.
Speaking of hurdles, Bloggy Blog Dezigns is still having their blog design contest, and I am still all about having someone more technically savvy than myself give me a blog makeover, so you know… I’m just going to follow the rules and hope I win! The following is from their site: Bloggy Blog Designz is doing it all over again! They are giving away blog designs and all kinds of goodies. Plus ALL entrants will receive 15% off their purchase! Be sure to check out their website (http://www.bloggyblogdesignz.com/) for more information, or to enter yourself. The giveaway will close on Feb 14 at midnight.
I’m going to head out into the snow and hit the grocery store now. Trying to determine whether or not I should put real clothes on, or if the sweats I’ve been lounging around in all weekend will suffice. I am so mellow right now I don’t care either way, because you know what? When I get my groceries I get to come back to my house and put them in my cupboards and then curl up on my couch to tweek out some writing before going to bed in my bed without a soul to disturb me.
I feel like such a grown-up right now!
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