So I had this dream last night, or a nightmare really. In it I was here (the one place in the world where I feel the safest and most loved), but I was all alone. I was asleep at first in my dream, when this thing opened the door and came to get me. You should know that one of my biggest fears throughout my entire adult life has been home invasion. I don’t know where this fear stems from, but I have lost a lot of sleep worrying about being attacked in the night. The weird thing was, in this dream the monster coming to get me wasn’t just one person, it was a combination of every person and thing that has ever hurt me in my entire life. I could literally recognize pieces of my mom, and my stepmom. There were remnants of friends who have betrayed me, and men who have let me down. The dog that attacked me when I was 8 was there in the face, but the most overwhelming presence there (the one person responsible for causing the most hurt and damage to me) was myself. This beast was large, and scary, and I was all alone. I woke up in a cold sweat, too scared to fight it off on my own. I couldn’t go back to sleep for over an hour.
Dreams are fun, huh?
ADSPACE
